Something I Can Never Have
Something I Can Never Have (Still)
Something I Can Never Have (Natural Born Killers Soundtrack)
Something I Can Never Have (Closure)
Something I Can Never Have (Beside You In Time)
Something I Can Never Have (Bridge Version)
"Something I Can Never Have" is the fifth track on the 1989 release Pretty Hate Machine. It's a song about lost love and missed chances, though the true story about the song isn't wildly (or at all) known. It is the first song in which Trent Reznor plays a piano and is the first song in which he uses the word "fuck" ("fading fucking reminder").
Contents
Song Credits
- Production: Trent Reznor, John Fryer
- Engineer/Mix: John Fryer
Appearances
Halos
- Pretty Hate Machine
- Closure
- And All That Could Have Been (Deluxe Edition)
- Still
- Beside You In Time
Other
Bootlegs and Rarities
Versions
Something I Can Never Have
This is the original album version. It begins with the decending pitch drone that segues in from "Sanctified" as the piano that dominates for most of the song creeps in. The song is notable for its ambient backing, including conflicting sounds of machinery and nature such as the buzzes, hisses and door slams that accompany the music as well as the ambience of wind and chirping birds buried far behind the "industrial noises." The song itself is fairly straightforward and gets louder as it progresses, notably Reznor's vocals which seem to grow in volume and emotion as the song progresses, the song surging up as it enters the last chorus before the ambience suddenly drops out on the last few lines, draining away and only leaving the chirping birds in the background.
Something I Can Never Have (Natural Born Killers Soundtrack)
An edited/remixed version of the song appearing on the soundtrack to the motion picture, Natural Born Killers, which was arranged and produced by Reznor himself. The song only contains the first verse and chorus, after which it deviates into an alternate piano section which slowly wanders to the song's end. The song also contains samples from the movie as well as several sound effects including:
- A thunderclap (at the very beginning)
- Nocturnal birds (during the fade off of the thunderclap)
- A movie sample of the two main characters (Mickey and Mallory) arguing (just after the piano starts)
Mickey: Let me tell you something, this is the 1990's. Alright?
In this day and age, a man has to have choices.
A man has to have a little bit of variety.
Mallory: What are you talking about, variety? Hostages?
You want to fuck some other women, now?
Is that what you're talking about, Mickey?
Why'd you pick me up? Why'd you take me out
of my fucking house and kill my parents with me?!
Ain't you committed to me?! Where are we fucking going?!!
Mickey: Just relax, alright? It's me, your lover, not some
demon, not your father. Alright, relax.
Mallory: No, you're not my fucking lover. You're not my fucking-
You've been loving me?! You've been fucking loving me?! Huh?!
You've been loving me real...(fade out)
- A rattlesnake (during the movie sample after the man speaks the second time)
- Fire crackling and hissing (towards the end)
- Sheep bleating (just after the fire sounds)
Even with the extended piano part, the song is a full minute and fourty seconds shorter than its album counterpart.
Something I Can Never Have (Closure)
Coming soon.
Something I Can Never Have (Still)
This stripped-down reworking consists of Reznor on piano and vocals, and Jerome Dillon on guitar. It is the first track on Still and follows the general arrangement of the song, though it completely lacks any of the "industrial ambience" of the original version save for an odd guitar whine during the latter half of the song. It is also nearly a minute longer than its Pretty Hate Machine counterpart.
Song Credits
- Performance: Trent Reznor, Jerome Dillon
- Mix engineering: Alan Moulder
- Engineering: Alan Moulder
- Second engineering: Leo Herrera
- Programming: Keith Hillebrandt
Something I Can Never Have (Beside You In Time)
After Reznor sings "just a fading fucking reminder", strange, "bell-ringing" sound effects are heard in the background (which are more audible on the 5.1 surround tracks).
Something I Can Never Have (Bridge Version)
The second song on the album, like all the songs from this particular performance, is performed entirely with string instruments and Reznor on vocals. No synthetics were used at all during this performance, but the arrangements seem to correlate with extended live version of the song played in concert by Nine Inch Nails.
Live
A difference from the studio version is the noticeably louder drums that are persistent in the choruses. The keyboard part is usually played by the bassist (Danny Lohner and Jeordie White).
During Woodstock '94 and Self Destruct, Trent ended the song with "I can never have... and you will never, ever, ever understand... how I feel."
Since Live: With Teeth, the last chorus has seen an additional rising guitar screech.
Lyrics
I still recall the taste of your tears
Echoing you voice just like the ringing in my ears
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore
Scraping through my head ‘till I don’t want to sleep anymore
Come on tell me
Make this all go away
You make this all go away
I’m down to just one thing and I’m starting to scare myself
Make this all go away
You make this all go away
I just want something
I just want something I can never have
You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldn’t do the things that I can do now
This thing is slowly taking me apart
Grey would be the color if I had a heart
I just want something I can never have
In this place it seems like such a shame
Though it all looks different now, I know it’s still the same
Everywhere I look you’re all I see
Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be
Come on tell me
Make this all go away
You make this all go away
I’m down to just one thing and I’m starting to scare myself
Make this all go away
You make this all go away
I just want something
I just want something I can never have
I just want something I can never have
Think I know what you meant
That night on my bed
Still picking at this scab
I wish you were dead
Your sweat and Perry Ellis
Just stains on my sheets